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Marlis Manley Broadhead

Marlis Manley Broadhead Marlis Manley Broadhead Marlis Manley Broadhead

Author of Award-winning Books, Stories, and Poems

Author of Award-winning Books, Stories, and PoemsAuthor of Award-winning Books, Stories, and PoemsAuthor of Award-winning Books, Stories, and Poems

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LetterPoem to a Man with His Hands at His Sides

This early morning room glares like a naked bulb

and when I close my eyes against the light, you

are almost here, like the lost words of your pauses

that always seem to tell another story, like the

wallpaper I've meant to hang for so long that

I am sometimes startled to see only stark sheetrock

and scarred ceilings where I intended smooth patterns.

Even this new floor has been gouged, the spot growing

darker like a bruise that will not heal, and I regret 

that I deal so awkwardly with reversals and with loose ends, 

the unknowns left dangling like your arms by your sides

the night I thought you were going to gather my ill-defined

fears against your chest until I could lose them

in the pattern of your shirt. And while I know now

that it matters only that you didn't--the why of it lost

in that last long pause--I still go on struggling

against the absence of blueprints and anniversaries

and write this letter, like my children scribbling

their crayon messages across the walls,

to color them with meaning.



LetterPoem to Ben Santos

Back in the Phillippines

after a Decade of Exile


Dear Ben, I've been trying to write in Iowa,

this northern patch you called home some years ago,

but this winter is possessed by unseasonable mildness

like my life now, the divorce at rest in the lower court

like a drugged beast, and I am awed by the evenness of days

devoid of anger or fear, or even that gnawing sense

of something about to go awry--like the tension on a guitar 

string between exact pitch and the snap as it breaks,

even that violation a brief singing. Still, I'm

trying to write something here, long to put my tongue

to the cld steel of a hunter's knife, free fall

onto the spine of the eastern windbreak, feel my ribs 

snagging in the sagging web of naked tree limbs.

This brown January pales with memories of fiercer winters

when the land was harsh white, each journey across a crust

of sleet, overhung with icicles sharp enough to draw blood.

How much easier then to see the direction, when survival

is the purest need. Still the need, you write from your homeland,

yielding to you again, a land grown soft and marshy where prayers

were once harsh as iron bars. And I think that you too are

suspicious of the softness underfoot, and that is why you say you

stand looking northward each afternoon, toward this cooler climate, 

and then go in to write me that your island is too warm for 

hearts to mend, and I imagine scar tissue sheer as the skin on your 

late wife's arms that grew frailer with each year your exile kept you 

from them. For my Linda, seventeen now, embraces are prescriptions--two daily for survival, an even dozen for health and joy. For whom but the impossibly young bouquets of embraces? Better to fill a knapsack with squash blossoms, something to lose and rediscover one day, probably in the spring, when we'll think we were looking for something else.

 Love, Marlis



Letter Poem to Valdon Valdois

  

A small spider, so pale his shadow defines him,

scrambles a thin arc across the wall toward the black

pane of the window, and I begrudge him that kind of 

ragged momentum I’ve given up trying to recapture, 

which is probably why I reach back for things--

like this address where I hope to reach you once more. 

There is one pillow too many on my bed. Its softness 

cradles this pad I write upon. All the fine-honed edges 

have gone soft now, and I thinkI should sleep naked 

on a window ledge, perhaps at that last farm where 

the wind whistled around the silo where we filled our

shirts and jeans with soy beans and laughed and lumbered 

across the field like robot scarecrows, frightening the 

neighbor’s dogs back through the fence. Still the charading 

scarecrow, but alone now, I frighten only myself, 

stumbling over the tumbled fences that stretch 

toward the edge I had not meant to mention here.

What I wanted to tell you was that a delivery boy came with

capsules to subdue these battles I wage within myself, 

and he was so loosely held together, spastic I suppose,

that I reached for the package with both hands, and he smiled

so beautifully for the seconds we touched I was overcome.

I didn’t think to thank him, but not wanting to let go, I kept

watching, and as he reached the curb, he fell and rose 

in one swift motion with almost dance-like steps

rehearsed a lifetime. He glanced over his shoulder, like a cat

casually licking a spot of fur there, but I saw his eyes,

and as he ducked his head and moved into the shadows 

I wanted to call out to him that it was all right, we are all falling.

I loved him, Val, not knowing why or caring, yet feeling suddenly

old and later than this hour has become. Too tired to care that you

will picture me this way, for as you read my letter at some new farm

no scarecrows haunt, surely you will also picture a bareback rider, 

sweatshirt sagging with stolen peaches, writing poems astride a tractor, 

singing to orphaned field mice and other frightened animals, which is 

no doubt why I send you this, meaning to send you love. M



LetterPoem to Kathleen Mellor

upon the loss of yet another collie


Too much, this fierce letting go

and absurd, I think, like rappelling barefoot

in the Adirondacks, or teaching a poor student

to write just well enough to submit a formal complaint

against a grade of C: why are there no plusses given, 

he asks over the phone on a Sunday night. Because, I 

want to tell him, all my grandparents died this semester

and I used them as coffin pins, or my dog ate them, 

coughing bloody stars into the late afternoon.

Your card said nothing about who found Reggie

in the street or how the motorcyclist played out his role.

Did the girls loop their grief around your neck 

like small arms, or are they too old now for that pure

collapse, that cleansing? When my horse collapsed 

into the hoof-ground dust of the feedlot—his feverish 

black sweaty glistening beneath the stars the altar 

of everything I would come to grasp of death and loss—

I never went back. For twenty years the red and black 

saddle has been drying out in the close air of the basement. 

On restless days, I’ll lower my face to breathe deeply 

of the leather, and think of riding again. The losses are

fierce, but so is the holding on. Remember that autumn we

started graduate school and I said all the doors were opening? 

We never considered then the things that might slip out 

and be lost. Still, I prefer the risk of life slightly ajar. 

Write me again when you are poolside tan and I’m 

engulfed with summer classes. I suspect we’ll know no 

more by then about surviving our losses beyond reaching

out to whatever’s left, as I do to you here with my love. 

   

    


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